Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Annoyed and Amazed

I am amazed today, the about of work that really does go through my office. Even though many times it feels like much doesn't get done- there is still a lot getting done. Yeah, I have my someday pile that continues to grow, but the essentials rarely get overlooked.

I am annoyed today, that people have to speak up about a few spelling errors on one week's bulletin- really? it's that big a deal? Come on people, this is my job- don't tell me that you don't ever spell something wrong at your job?! Don't get me wrong, I am all for accuracy and shooint for correct grammer, but if you think! for a moment that I have time to let you come in and proofread for me during the week- you are out of your mind, I never know when it is done! I never know when it's completed with everyone else's input, before I can add my own. Unless that is, you expect me to continue to put more and more hours into this job, that you are probably going to cut hours to next year!

Rant and Rave Complete, now back to work.

ps- if you belong (go regularly) to a church- PLEDGE! someone's job could count on it!

Friday, November 14, 2008

I am a FLYbaby!

Hi there,
I am writing to and forwarding the letter below for different reasons to 2 different kinds of people. The "Born Organized" and the "not! so Born Organized" - and I bet you know which you are. :)

If you are "Born Organized", maybe the below letter will help you relate to us in the other group. I know that it really helped me, understand and be able to explain myself... cuz if you didn't already know- I am so the "not! so Born Organized" - in mind, body and soul! :)
If fact if you are a "Born Organized" freak :) - then this intro letter is for you from me: (and if you don't feel like it matters of how you relate to me emotionally or personally- I am sure that you have someone else close to you that fits this "not! so Born Organized" idea as well, so still read it.)

I know you guys have a hard time keeping up with me - thought, emotions, tasks.... I have a hard time keeping up with myself as well; this letter below might help. This is from a website that I have known about for a long time, but finally joined this week http://www.flylady.com/. I can't even explain how weird and good it is to know that there are other people like me that understand my craziness! :) This letter almost brought me to tears & I wanted to share it with you, so that you can maybe get a glimpse of what really is going on in my brain most of the time. This website is mostly related to house cleaning, but it really starts to make you focus on each part of your day, instead of flitting around- which is always needed for me. :) The letter is kinda long, but please take the time to read it. It's from the Flylady to me because I recently joined the website- but I would like your feedback on it & what you think about it- does it fit me?

Jenn




If you are like me, the "not! so Born Organized" -
I loving forward the below letter to you. I hooope that it will touch you and encourage you, as much as it has me. I would also encourage you to check out & join http://www.flylady.net/ website. Even if you have housecleaning down, or it doesn't apply to you because you a) don't clean or b) don't have to (which in either case- you suck!) :) you may still find some really good information on it.

And however, silly it may be- this one website - in the last four or five days, has really let me go of some of my radical perfectionism that normally stifles most of my life and wished actions. I know that it is a process of baby steps- which like she explains, is really really difficult for me, but I know that it will be worth the results & worth a clean house and clean mind.

Let me know what you think?
In love,
Jennifer Eberhard

Flylady Butterflies Beginnings

I received this letter by email from flylady.net & all copyrights remain with them.

My Dear New FlyBaby,

My heart goes out to you! I know how you have been put down because of your imagination, creativity and sidetrackedness. We don’t fit the mold our family wants us to fit. God knows how hard we have tried to be what they wanted us to be. Everybody just wants to be loved. The problem is they don’t know how to love us and that is not their fault. Our imagination and creativity is our gift. That gift, most of the time gets us sidetracked and at that point we are criticized for not finishing what we started. We flit from flower to flower making the world a beautiful place like the butterflies we watch in the yard.

Here is the most exciting part of our imagination and creativity; we are very intelligent. So much so that it might even scare our family. We were not “Born Organized” but we can learn how to be organized. But this organization cannot be stuffed down our throats. As children we were told to go clean our rooms. Our brains are so busy with creating that we don’t know how to clean a room. Now here is the funny part. A “Born Organized” person does not know how to teach us to do this either. They don’t understand themselves how it is done because in the first place they have never allowed anything to get that messy. The other part of it is that they just do and don’t think about it. I have watched “Born Organized” People and they are constantly puttering around the house doing things. They flit around with a purpose to put things back into the order they have set up. We flit because we don’t know where to start and we are trying to do too many things at one time.

So how do we use our imagination and creativity to help us learn how to flit with a purpose! This is a big question that I am going to answer for you in due time. First I want to help you be able to hear what I am saying.

Let me start by saying, “I am not your mother demanding that you go clean your room!” Now here is the tough part. If you have heard your mother’s voice when you have read my messages then we are going to work hard to remove that voice from your head. You are an adult and this is your home. I am not your mother, I am your dear friend that you have asked to help you. I am not critical of the way you keep your home, because I am just like you. I have lived in clutter and CHAOS too and I understand how the clutter becomes a cocoon to isolate you from your imagination and creativity.

We have been made to feel guilty because of our gift of imagination. Well I am here to tell you that our imagination if a powerful tool to help us out of our cocoon. If we can think it; we can do it. We can take our idea and turn it into whatever it is that we choose. We just need someone to teach us how to make this happen without the world falling apart around us.

Our homes are stifling our imagination. Our little creative minds have been stuffed into this cocoon because of the guilt that has been put on our little heads. We are blessed to have an imagination. We fight hard to keep from being stuffed into that cocoon. This is why we rebel against habits and routines. They look too much like the “Born Organized” people in our lives. They are a tool that helps us to emerge from our cocoon of guilt and suffocation to find our true joy in living.

Let me tell you a little story. My grandmother hated the fall when the leaves would cover the ground. All these leaves meant to her was work. For me they were fun. I loved to rake them into a pile and jump into them. I hated burning them. I disliked the smoke and soot because the fire was destroying my playground. I would sit and watch the fire and be so sad. My grandmother would fuss because I was not helping. I would try to come up with excuses to not burn them. All I would hear was that I was just lazy! That was not it at all. I guess I was an environmental scientist at heart because at eight years old I was trying to figure out what that black stuff was that ruined my leaves. It could not be good for my lungs or the sky. All I can say is I have never burned or raked a leaf as an adult! I love to see a path covered in leaves. It is the cycle of life; the breaking down and renewing of the old leaves to give nutrients to the soil to perpetuate life.

I am tired of my babies being put down for their imagination. I want your imagination to be set free from its cocoon and FLY; to soar high without fear of being knocked down. It is my desire to teach you how to take the babysteps to flit from flower to flower making this world a better place. Without our imagination and creativity this world would be a pretty dull place to live. After wiping a few tears I am now laughing out loud. We are so blessed! We can learn to be organized but a “Born Organized” person cannot learn to be imaginative or creative! Let me tell you a little secret. Our imagination is what makes the world go round! Without us there would not be any ideas. Our limitations are that we get bored with details because we want to go on to the next thing.

The reason this happens is because we hyper focus and ruin the creative process. I don’t want you to do this with FlyLady. You have to take babysteps and enjoy the process. Let go of the perfectionism that has been stuffed down your throats and have some fun. The one thing your momma did say that is true is that once you get the homework done you can go out and play! Here is the cute part about that statement. We can turn this around to mean what we want it to. We no longer have to hyper focus with our nose to the grindstone to get something done. We can make it fun while we are doing it. This is why we love a timer. It tells us when to start and then when it is time to stop. We have permission to stop and go on to something else. If you will; flitting with a purpose. You will get back to what you were doing but now you are going to take your creativity to another flower. All the while using your timer to help keep you focused on the thing you are doing now. You can do anything for 15 minutes! Then you get to stop!

Did you ever feel as if your head was about to explode with ideas? The ideas were coming so fast that you could not even see them in your mind’s eye. We have to practice harnessing these ideas. This is why we have a hard time sleeping at night. Our minds are racing. If we can practice staying focused for just 15 minutes at a time. This will help us to slow down our minds so that we can think things through the babystep process. Everything has a beginning, a middle and an end. We want to jump right to the end. We see something totally finished but we don’t know how it got there in our mind’s eye. When we slow down our brains we can actually figure this out for ourselves. Even if we have to go backwards to figure it out; this is called retracing our steps. When your mind is racing this is difficult to do. We have so many pictures and words coming into our consciousness that we can’t hear what we need to do first. I want you to practice something for me.

Set your timer for five minutes.
Sit down in a comfortable chair. Do not lay down because I don’t want you to go to sleep.
Now I want you to close your eyes after you finish reading this little imaginary journey we are going to take.

I want you to pretend that you are a security guard watching a TV screen. This screen is on the inside of your forehead. You are looking at a blank screen. As the pictures in your mind pop up onto that screen I want you to delete them. Just say delete. As you sit there you will find that this is difficult to do but we are not looking for perfection. We just want to slow the pictures down so you can see the details instead of a blur. Eventually you will be able to see everything you need to see. As a result of just practicing this you will find that your breathing will become slower and deeper. You may even become more relaxed too.

We have never known what it is we have wanted in life because we have so many things running through our heads at once. We can focus and be very creative with what we it is that we are to do!

I love you like I love myself. I know you like I know me! I don’t want you to be hurt another day! I want for you what I have found; PEACE. This peace came from finding out who I am and loving every bit of me because I am worthy and I can accomplish whatever I can think about. No one ever gave us the instruction manual to explain the tools we were born with. Let’s take our tools/talents and use them to show the world that we can FLY. It all starts with finally loving yourself enough to take babysteps to release the negativity and perfectionism!

We can flit from flower to flower like the beautiful butterfly! We have the butterfly power within each of us. We can spread our wings and make our corner of the world just a little bit brighter with our colorful arms to hug us!

Are you ready to come out of your Cocoon and FLY?

FlyLady

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Very Funny Article

Click on this title to jump to a news article.

Glad my place of employement hasn't been stolen!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Cleaning Baby Steps

Lately, baby steps are everywhere!

David and I just completed a 90day program about Financial Peace from Dave Ramsey. It was great, we are working though his baby steps and we are on Baby Step 2 - Debt Snowball. We have made the goal of paying off our rather ridiculous debt by the end of 2009; 2010 will start in a way that we have never been before- debt free & living in finaical freedom.

I have also recently pickup a book/wookbook that I starting last year, but wasn't able to get serious about. Now, I am serious & I am following Julia Havey's Life Changer Program. I am only 5 day in, but it made me realize how much thought process has to do with eating, goals, weight loss and life changes. I really need to make some personal talk changes, in order to develop into the person that I know I can be.

And now in a random Google of baby steps- Fly Lady also has baby steps- so I am thinking, why not!? :) I like Fly Lady and I am beginning to like baby steps- small daily steps... makes sense this would be a good way to clean my house as well as my checkbook and my body.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Just a waste

Wasted night again. I can't seem to get in a workable & productive routine, still - I have worked so hard, and yet still the same place. I seem to be able to get to a starting point, but not much beyond that. I am driven and thoughtful. I know that I can do what I set out to. It is about small daily steps, small daily actions.

Today, I shared a devotion at our staff meeting about 5% more. What would even 5% more than I am doing now? 5% more would make a difference- that's what! :) Tomorrow, I have a full day to do that 5% more. A new chance to do and be everything that I want. Tonight, I will go to bed, so that I can rest and be prepared for all this everything.