I had a Dream!

Ok, so last night/this morning I had a pretty crazy dream - I don't remember everything & it just shows me that I should have written it down, when I woke up - to make sure my details were right.
What I do remember is spotted; we were setting up a camping trip with family and friends. Some friends and I rented a cabin, and were bouncing through it putting stuff away - until we found a polar bear hiding under my bed. The polar bear was cute and loveable, but we were scared becuase we didn't want the smell to attact other bears. Then when it ran out of the cabin from a whole in the drywall - we were really worried, knowing that his mommy would be looking for him. We were all very scared & paniced on what to do - then somehow we locked the brown mommy bear into another room of the cabin & when she was sleeping, we snuck past so we could get our stuff and get ready for church. There was some kinda of car accedient on the way to church & I was trying to call Dad (back at the cabin with the bear) not to open one of the doors, because we found out she was locked in a different room than before. By the time we got back from church, she was gone- but we couldn't figure out where she went, until we saw a trap door. I don't know when this part was but I also remember that David and I were setting up a camper in our camp spot, and then my family showed up and they were sad that we were there too - I was trying to surprise them, but they didn't want us around. :( I aldo remember kinda waking in and out of the dream, but I continued to be worried about the bear - there was just a stressful and insettling feeling about the whole thing.

So... here is a little bit about what DreamMoods.com says about the significance of specific items in my dream. DreamMoods is a dream interpretation site that I really enjoy.
Camping: To dream that you are camping, indicates a need for relaxation and a long-deserved break. You need to be more in touch with nature and go back to a more basic and simpler life. Alternatively, it refers to your social circle and support group. You are looking for a sense of belonging, but at the same time be self-sufficient and independent.

Cabin: To see or dream that you are in a wood cabin, indicates that you will succeed via your own means. It suggests that you are self-reliant and independent, yet still remain humble. You prefer the simpler things in life.

Bear: To see a bear in your dream, symbolizes independence, the cycle of life, death and renewal. It may signal of period of introspection and thinking. The dream may also be a pun on "bare". Perhaps you need to bare your soul and let everything out into the open. To dream that you are being pursued or attacked by a bear, denotes aggression, overwhelming obstacles and competition. You may find yourself in a threatening situation. To see a polar bear in your dream, signifies a reawakening.

Locked Doors: To dream that the doors are closed or locked, signify opportunities that are denied and not available to you or that you have missed out on. Something or someone is blocking your progress. It also symbolizes the ending of a phase or project. In particular, if you are outside the locked door, then it suggests that you are having some anti-social tendencies. If you are inside the locked door, then it represents harsh lessons that need to be learned.
To dream that you are locking doors, suggests that you are closing yourself off from others. You are hesitant in letting others in and revealing your feelings. It is indicative of some fear and low self-worth. If someone slams the door in your face, indicates that you are feeling shut out or some activity or that you are being ignored.

Car Accident: To dream of a car accident, symbolizes your emotional state. You may be harboring deep anxieties and fears. Are you "driving" yourself too hard? This dream may tell you to slow down before you hit disaster. You need to rethink or re-plan your course of actions and set yourself on a better path.

Escape: To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement, signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Alternatively, it suggests that you are refusing to face your problems. You are avoiding the situation, instead of confronting them.
To dream that you escape from injury, from an animal, or from any situation, signifies your good health and prosperity. You will experience a favorable turn of events.

Camper: To dream that you are living in a camper, indicates that you need to move on with regards to some aspect of your life. You may be dwelling on a situation and it is time to move forward. Alternatively, you may be expressing your desire to be more independent and self-sufficient.

Surprise: To dream that you are pleasantly surprised, indicates that you are opened in acknowledging and confronting your unconscious feelings. To dream that you are unpleasantly surprised, suggests fear of the unexpected and unknown. You do not want to face your feelings.

• I can agree with the camping part. I could use a "real" break. :)
• I like the cabin part. :) I was confused in my dream - because it was an old wood cabin, but it had the one drywalled wall that the polar bear's hole was in, kinda a flapped corner. - "To dream that you demolish or break down a wall, indicates that you are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. It also means that you desire some freedom and independence. If you see a wall crumble, then it suggests that you have easily risen above your problems and overcame your barriers." Again I didn't break the wall - but it was really messed up.
• How wild is it that it specificly lists a polar bear? reawakening. Wow! And there was the mommy bear who was agressive, but seemed to be able to sneek around.
• Ok, so I was closing and locking the bear out, meaning: ? I'm not sharing my feelings about obstacals or competition. ???
• We weren't in the car accident, I just know that it was something slowing us down from getting to where we were going - knowledge that was important, shutting down lanes of traffic, but I didn't ever see the actual accident (I don't think?)
• I didn't escape - the bear did?
• We were setting up a very specific camper - felt kinda like the tent in Harry Potter - was normal on the outside, but much larger and spacious on the inside, almost a full house.
• I wasn't the one being surprised, but I was trying to surprise my family - they were unplesently surprised. - maybe I am afraid of the unexpected from my family or what they think. ???

Thoughts? Post here or email me. :)

David Update

Hi Everyone,

As most of you know, David has been sick for a couple of days (since Saturda) with a high fever & mild body aches. Unfortunaltely, it's not the flu... His high fever comes back after Tylenol and Advil ware off, and yes we have been to the doctor, more than once in fact!

We just got back from the doc again today, and hopefully with more blood tests - they'll be able to figure out what's going on. We are both sick of this ridiculous mystery illness, and have new found respect for our family and friends that have had to go through much worse than our own 5 days of sickness. We again went to the doctor this morning & after haning out there a few hours.... they are still are not sure what's going on. We are jumping through all the hoops, so I am sure we'll find out something soon. Tomorrow we go back in, this time to an infecious desease specialitst. David is pretty freaked out about that, so all your thoughts and many prayers - will be much appreciated, we are hoping that they come up with something "normal" and nothing too serious or long term. It could possibly be Mono or even West Nile- but both normally have many other symptoms as well, so that's why they aren't sure until the blood tests come back.

Today we had to put in a short term disapility claim since he has missed the full week of work, and has been written a note for the rest of the week. His bosses have been very understanding & wishing him well. I've also missed a few days of work, in order to take him to his appointments & take care of him once we are home. Today I went if for a short time & am hoping that they are just as understanding as UPS has been with David.

Anyhow, figured a written update is easiest, instead of calling everyone seperatly. :) Thanks again for all your prayers! please keep them coming! :)

Starting Points by Luci Swindoll

Starting Points by Luci Swindoll

Do you travel? I do! A lot! And there are certain things I have to take on every trip. Ive learned first to work on the knownscosmetics, underwear, medications, pajamas, and night-light (I never travel without a night-light). Then I move to clothes, shoes, and accessories, depending on the season, engagement, and destination. It finally comes down to a science. Starting with what I know (in any dilemma) is helpful and will ultimately get the job done.

Starting points of any endeavor can be debilitating. We dont want to start something because it seems too hard, too involved, and too much work. Whether its writing a term paper, building a house, saving money, losing weight, or packing for a trip, we dont know where to beginso we dont.

Lifes highway is littered with people who had good intentions but never punched the start button. I know a few people like this, and their questions are always the same: How did you do that? How do you always finish projects? How did you plan that far-fetched vacation to that out-of-the-way spot? The answer to each of these is the samestart. Nobody has the key to the outcome, but we all have the key to possibility. Open the door and walk through it.

Excerpted from Life! Celebrate It copyright ©2006 Luci Swindoll. Published by Thomas Nelson, Inc. Used with permission. All Rights Reserved.

Annoyed, at myself

Why am I my own worst emeny?
Why do I dream of things I can not possess?
What attacks are these?

These thoughts are oppressing, they are silented by my voice.
These words that won't be uttered, yet grow louder than they seem.
It's not that they aren't truth, but more that they are not welcomed.
Not right among us, not ready for them to be loose.

Searching out my S.T.O.R.Y

So reading last night sparked some thoughts - I was reading Cure for the Common Life by Max Lucado. I really love how his writtings can speak to me, I want to someday be a writer like that.
Him and Beth Moore! Pow! Their words can drop me to the floor. :) Anyhow! Last night, we were looking at how each of us are created completely unquie and that we each have a S.T.O.R.Y to figure out. I only got as far as STO - :) Strengths, Topic & Optimal Situations.

Humm.... quite hard to think of huh!? :) (will continue to update later)