Dry Heaves

I want to throw up but I haven't been brave enough to eat anything.
I want to do whatever I want to do.
I want to say whatever it is I want to say.
I want to talk to whoever I want to talk to.
I want to but I don't, because it's not the right thing to do.

So instead ...
I won't throw up, I'll even try to eat.
I won't do what I want.
I won't say what I feel.
I won't talk to who I want to talk to.

I won't care to love you anymore.