I am amazed today, the about of work that really does go through my office. Even though many times it feels like much doesn't get done- there is still a lot getting done. Yeah, I have my someday pile that continues to grow, but the essentials rarely get overlooked.
I am annoyed today, that people have to speak up about a few spelling errors on one week's bulletin- really? it's that big a deal? Come on people, this is my job- don't tell me that you don't ever spell something wrong at your job?! Don't get me wrong, I am all for accuracy and shooint for correct grammer, but if you think! for a moment that I have time to let you come in and proofread for me during the week- you are out of your mind, I never know when it is done! I never know when it's completed with everyone else's input, before I can add my own. Unless that is, you expect me to continue to put more and more hours into this job, that you are probably going to cut hours to next year!
Rant and Rave Complete, now back to work.
ps- if you belong (go regularly) to a church- PLEDGE! someone's job could count on it!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
I am a FLYbaby!
Hi there,
I am writing to and forwarding the letter below for different reasons to 2 different kinds of people. The "Born Organized" and the "not! so Born Organized" - and I bet you know which you are. :)
If you are "Born Organized", maybe the below letter will help you relate to us in the other group. I know that it really helped me, understand and be able to explain myself... cuz if you didn't already know- I am so the "not! so Born Organized" - in mind, body and soul! :)
If fact if you are a "Born Organized" freak :) - then this intro letter is for you from me: (and if you don't feel like it matters of how you relate to me emotionally or personally- I am sure that you have someone else close to you that fits this "not! so Born Organized" idea as well, so still read it.)
I know you guys have a hard time keeping up with me - thought, emotions, tasks.... I have a hard time keeping up with myself as well; this letter below might help. This is from a website that I have known about for a long time, but finally joined this week http://www.flylady.com/. I can't even explain how weird and good it is to know that there are other people like me that understand my craziness! :) This letter almost brought me to tears & I wanted to share it with you, so that you can maybe get a glimpse of what really is going on in my brain most of the time. This website is mostly related to house cleaning, but it really starts to make you focus on each part of your day, instead of flitting around- which is always needed for me. :) The letter is kinda long, but please take the time to read it. It's from the Flylady to me because I recently joined the website- but I would like your feedback on it & what you think about it- does it fit me?
Jenn
If you are like me, the "not! so Born Organized" -
I loving forward the below letter to you. I hooope that it will touch you and encourage you, as much as it has me. I would also encourage you to check out & join http://www.flylady.net/ website. Even if you have housecleaning down, or it doesn't apply to you because you a) don't clean or b) don't have to (which in either case- you suck!) :) you may still find some really good information on it.
And however, silly it may be- this one website - in the last four or five days, has really let me go of some of my radical perfectionism that normally stifles most of my life and wished actions. I know that it is a process of baby steps- which like she explains, is really really difficult for me, but I know that it will be worth the results & worth a clean house and clean mind.
Let me know what you think?
In love,
Jennifer Eberhard
I am writing to and forwarding the letter below for different reasons to 2 different kinds of people. The "Born Organized" and the "not! so Born Organized" - and I bet you know which you are. :)
If you are "Born Organized", maybe the below letter will help you relate to us in the other group. I know that it really helped me, understand and be able to explain myself... cuz if you didn't already know- I am so the "not! so Born Organized" - in mind, body and soul! :)
If fact if you are a "Born Organized" freak :) - then this intro letter is for you from me: (and if you don't feel like it matters of how you relate to me emotionally or personally- I am sure that you have someone else close to you that fits this "not! so Born Organized" idea as well, so still read it.)
I know you guys have a hard time keeping up with me - thought, emotions, tasks.... I have a hard time keeping up with myself as well; this letter below might help. This is from a website that I have known about for a long time, but finally joined this week http://www.flylady.com/. I can't even explain how weird and good it is to know that there are other people like me that understand my craziness! :) This letter almost brought me to tears & I wanted to share it with you, so that you can maybe get a glimpse of what really is going on in my brain most of the time. This website is mostly related to house cleaning, but it really starts to make you focus on each part of your day, instead of flitting around- which is always needed for me. :) The letter is kinda long, but please take the time to read it. It's from the Flylady to me because I recently joined the website- but I would like your feedback on it & what you think about it- does it fit me?
Jenn
If you are like me, the "not! so Born Organized" -
I loving forward the below letter to you. I hooope that it will touch you and encourage you, as much as it has me. I would also encourage you to check out & join http://www.flylady.net/ website. Even if you have housecleaning down, or it doesn't apply to you because you a) don't clean or b) don't have to (which in either case- you suck!) :) you may still find some really good information on it.
And however, silly it may be- this one website - in the last four or five days, has really let me go of some of my radical perfectionism that normally stifles most of my life and wished actions. I know that it is a process of baby steps- which like she explains, is really really difficult for me, but I know that it will be worth the results & worth a clean house and clean mind.
Let me know what you think?
In love,
Jennifer Eberhard
Flylady Butterflies Beginnings
I received this letter by email from flylady.net & all copyrights remain with them.
My Dear New FlyBaby,
My heart goes out to you! I know how you have been put down because of your imagination, creativity and sidetrackedness. We don’t fit the mold our family wants us to fit. God knows how hard we have tried to be what they wanted us to be. Everybody just wants to be loved. The problem is they don’t know how to love us and that is not their fault. Our imagination and creativity is our gift. That gift, most of the time gets us sidetracked and at that point we are criticized for not finishing what we started. We flit from flower to flower making the world a beautiful place like the butterflies we watch in the yard.
Here is the most exciting part of our imagination and creativity; we are very intelligent. So much so that it might even scare our family. We were not “Born Organized” but we can learn how to be organized. But this organization cannot be stuffed down our throats. As children we were told to go clean our rooms. Our brains are so busy with creating that we don’t know how to clean a room. Now here is the funny part. A “Born Organized” person does not know how to teach us to do this either. They don’t understand themselves how it is done because in the first place they have never allowed anything to get that messy. The other part of it is that they just do and don’t think about it. I have watched “Born Organized” People and they are constantly puttering around the house doing things. They flit around with a purpose to put things back into the order they have set up. We flit because we don’t know where to start and we are trying to do too many things at one time.
So how do we use our imagination and creativity to help us learn how to flit with a purpose! This is a big question that I am going to answer for you in due time. First I want to help you be able to hear what I am saying.
Let me start by saying, “I am not your mother demanding that you go clean your room!” Now here is the tough part. If you have heard your mother’s voice when you have read my messages then we are going to work hard to remove that voice from your head. You are an adult and this is your home. I am not your mother, I am your dear friend that you have asked to help you. I am not critical of the way you keep your home, because I am just like you. I have lived in clutter and CHAOS too and I understand how the clutter becomes a cocoon to isolate you from your imagination and creativity.
We have been made to feel guilty because of our gift of imagination. Well I am here to tell you that our imagination if a powerful tool to help us out of our cocoon. If we can think it; we can do it. We can take our idea and turn it into whatever it is that we choose. We just need someone to teach us how to make this happen without the world falling apart around us.
Our homes are stifling our imagination. Our little creative minds have been stuffed into this cocoon because of the guilt that has been put on our little heads. We are blessed to have an imagination. We fight hard to keep from being stuffed into that cocoon. This is why we rebel against habits and routines. They look too much like the “Born Organized” people in our lives. They are a tool that helps us to emerge from our cocoon of guilt and suffocation to find our true joy in living.
Let me tell you a little story. My grandmother hated the fall when the leaves would cover the ground. All these leaves meant to her was work. For me they were fun. I loved to rake them into a pile and jump into them. I hated burning them. I disliked the smoke and soot because the fire was destroying my playground. I would sit and watch the fire and be so sad. My grandmother would fuss because I was not helping. I would try to come up with excuses to not burn them. All I would hear was that I was just lazy! That was not it at all. I guess I was an environmental scientist at heart because at eight years old I was trying to figure out what that black stuff was that ruined my leaves. It could not be good for my lungs or the sky. All I can say is I have never burned or raked a leaf as an adult! I love to see a path covered in leaves. It is the cycle of life; the breaking down and renewing of the old leaves to give nutrients to the soil to perpetuate life.
I am tired of my babies being put down for their imagination. I want your imagination to be set free from its cocoon and FLY; to soar high without fear of being knocked down. It is my desire to teach you how to take the babysteps to flit from flower to flower making this world a better place. Without our imagination and creativity this world would be a pretty dull place to live. After wiping a few tears I am now laughing out loud. We are so blessed! We can learn to be organized but a “Born Organized” person cannot learn to be imaginative or creative! Let me tell you a little secret. Our imagination is what makes the world go round! Without us there would not be any ideas. Our limitations are that we get bored with details because we want to go on to the next thing.
The reason this happens is because we hyper focus and ruin the creative process. I don’t want you to do this with FlyLady. You have to take babysteps and enjoy the process. Let go of the perfectionism that has been stuffed down your throats and have some fun. The one thing your momma did say that is true is that once you get the homework done you can go out and play! Here is the cute part about that statement. We can turn this around to mean what we want it to. We no longer have to hyper focus with our nose to the grindstone to get something done. We can make it fun while we are doing it. This is why we love a timer. It tells us when to start and then when it is time to stop. We have permission to stop and go on to something else. If you will; flitting with a purpose. You will get back to what you were doing but now you are going to take your creativity to another flower. All the while using your timer to help keep you focused on the thing you are doing now. You can do anything for 15 minutes! Then you get to stop!
Did you ever feel as if your head was about to explode with ideas? The ideas were coming so fast that you could not even see them in your mind’s eye. We have to practice harnessing these ideas. This is why we have a hard time sleeping at night. Our minds are racing. If we can practice staying focused for just 15 minutes at a time. This will help us to slow down our minds so that we can think things through the babystep process. Everything has a beginning, a middle and an end. We want to jump right to the end. We see something totally finished but we don’t know how it got there in our mind’s eye. When we slow down our brains we can actually figure this out for ourselves. Even if we have to go backwards to figure it out; this is called retracing our steps. When your mind is racing this is difficult to do. We have so many pictures and words coming into our consciousness that we can’t hear what we need to do first. I want you to practice something for me.
Set your timer for five minutes.
Sit down in a comfortable chair. Do not lay down because I don’t want you to go to sleep.
Now I want you to close your eyes after you finish reading this little imaginary journey we are going to take.
I want you to pretend that you are a security guard watching a TV screen. This screen is on the inside of your forehead. You are looking at a blank screen. As the pictures in your mind pop up onto that screen I want you to delete them. Just say delete. As you sit there you will find that this is difficult to do but we are not looking for perfection. We just want to slow the pictures down so you can see the details instead of a blur. Eventually you will be able to see everything you need to see. As a result of just practicing this you will find that your breathing will become slower and deeper. You may even become more relaxed too.
We have never known what it is we have wanted in life because we have so many things running through our heads at once. We can focus and be very creative with what we it is that we are to do!
I love you like I love myself. I know you like I know me! I don’t want you to be hurt another day! I want for you what I have found; PEACE. This peace came from finding out who I am and loving every bit of me because I am worthy and I can accomplish whatever I can think about. No one ever gave us the instruction manual to explain the tools we were born with. Let’s take our tools/talents and use them to show the world that we can FLY. It all starts with finally loving yourself enough to take babysteps to release the negativity and perfectionism!
We can flit from flower to flower like the beautiful butterfly! We have the butterfly power within each of us. We can spread our wings and make our corner of the world just a little bit brighter with our colorful arms to hug us!
Are you ready to come out of your Cocoon and FLY?
FlyLady
My Dear New FlyBaby,
My heart goes out to you! I know how you have been put down because of your imagination, creativity and sidetrackedness. We don’t fit the mold our family wants us to fit. God knows how hard we have tried to be what they wanted us to be. Everybody just wants to be loved. The problem is they don’t know how to love us and that is not their fault. Our imagination and creativity is our gift. That gift, most of the time gets us sidetracked and at that point we are criticized for not finishing what we started. We flit from flower to flower making the world a beautiful place like the butterflies we watch in the yard.
Here is the most exciting part of our imagination and creativity; we are very intelligent. So much so that it might even scare our family. We were not “Born Organized” but we can learn how to be organized. But this organization cannot be stuffed down our throats. As children we were told to go clean our rooms. Our brains are so busy with creating that we don’t know how to clean a room. Now here is the funny part. A “Born Organized” person does not know how to teach us to do this either. They don’t understand themselves how it is done because in the first place they have never allowed anything to get that messy. The other part of it is that they just do and don’t think about it. I have watched “Born Organized” People and they are constantly puttering around the house doing things. They flit around with a purpose to put things back into the order they have set up. We flit because we don’t know where to start and we are trying to do too many things at one time.
So how do we use our imagination and creativity to help us learn how to flit with a purpose! This is a big question that I am going to answer for you in due time. First I want to help you be able to hear what I am saying.
Let me start by saying, “I am not your mother demanding that you go clean your room!” Now here is the tough part. If you have heard your mother’s voice when you have read my messages then we are going to work hard to remove that voice from your head. You are an adult and this is your home. I am not your mother, I am your dear friend that you have asked to help you. I am not critical of the way you keep your home, because I am just like you. I have lived in clutter and CHAOS too and I understand how the clutter becomes a cocoon to isolate you from your imagination and creativity.
We have been made to feel guilty because of our gift of imagination. Well I am here to tell you that our imagination if a powerful tool to help us out of our cocoon. If we can think it; we can do it. We can take our idea and turn it into whatever it is that we choose. We just need someone to teach us how to make this happen without the world falling apart around us.
Our homes are stifling our imagination. Our little creative minds have been stuffed into this cocoon because of the guilt that has been put on our little heads. We are blessed to have an imagination. We fight hard to keep from being stuffed into that cocoon. This is why we rebel against habits and routines. They look too much like the “Born Organized” people in our lives. They are a tool that helps us to emerge from our cocoon of guilt and suffocation to find our true joy in living.
Let me tell you a little story. My grandmother hated the fall when the leaves would cover the ground. All these leaves meant to her was work. For me they were fun. I loved to rake them into a pile and jump into them. I hated burning them. I disliked the smoke and soot because the fire was destroying my playground. I would sit and watch the fire and be so sad. My grandmother would fuss because I was not helping. I would try to come up with excuses to not burn them. All I would hear was that I was just lazy! That was not it at all. I guess I was an environmental scientist at heart because at eight years old I was trying to figure out what that black stuff was that ruined my leaves. It could not be good for my lungs or the sky. All I can say is I have never burned or raked a leaf as an adult! I love to see a path covered in leaves. It is the cycle of life; the breaking down and renewing of the old leaves to give nutrients to the soil to perpetuate life.
I am tired of my babies being put down for their imagination. I want your imagination to be set free from its cocoon and FLY; to soar high without fear of being knocked down. It is my desire to teach you how to take the babysteps to flit from flower to flower making this world a better place. Without our imagination and creativity this world would be a pretty dull place to live. After wiping a few tears I am now laughing out loud. We are so blessed! We can learn to be organized but a “Born Organized” person cannot learn to be imaginative or creative! Let me tell you a little secret. Our imagination is what makes the world go round! Without us there would not be any ideas. Our limitations are that we get bored with details because we want to go on to the next thing.
The reason this happens is because we hyper focus and ruin the creative process. I don’t want you to do this with FlyLady. You have to take babysteps and enjoy the process. Let go of the perfectionism that has been stuffed down your throats and have some fun. The one thing your momma did say that is true is that once you get the homework done you can go out and play! Here is the cute part about that statement. We can turn this around to mean what we want it to. We no longer have to hyper focus with our nose to the grindstone to get something done. We can make it fun while we are doing it. This is why we love a timer. It tells us when to start and then when it is time to stop. We have permission to stop and go on to something else. If you will; flitting with a purpose. You will get back to what you were doing but now you are going to take your creativity to another flower. All the while using your timer to help keep you focused on the thing you are doing now. You can do anything for 15 minutes! Then you get to stop!
Did you ever feel as if your head was about to explode with ideas? The ideas were coming so fast that you could not even see them in your mind’s eye. We have to practice harnessing these ideas. This is why we have a hard time sleeping at night. Our minds are racing. If we can practice staying focused for just 15 minutes at a time. This will help us to slow down our minds so that we can think things through the babystep process. Everything has a beginning, a middle and an end. We want to jump right to the end. We see something totally finished but we don’t know how it got there in our mind’s eye. When we slow down our brains we can actually figure this out for ourselves. Even if we have to go backwards to figure it out; this is called retracing our steps. When your mind is racing this is difficult to do. We have so many pictures and words coming into our consciousness that we can’t hear what we need to do first. I want you to practice something for me.
Set your timer for five minutes.
Sit down in a comfortable chair. Do not lay down because I don’t want you to go to sleep.
Now I want you to close your eyes after you finish reading this little imaginary journey we are going to take.
I want you to pretend that you are a security guard watching a TV screen. This screen is on the inside of your forehead. You are looking at a blank screen. As the pictures in your mind pop up onto that screen I want you to delete them. Just say delete. As you sit there you will find that this is difficult to do but we are not looking for perfection. We just want to slow the pictures down so you can see the details instead of a blur. Eventually you will be able to see everything you need to see. As a result of just practicing this you will find that your breathing will become slower and deeper. You may even become more relaxed too.
We have never known what it is we have wanted in life because we have so many things running through our heads at once. We can focus and be very creative with what we it is that we are to do!
I love you like I love myself. I know you like I know me! I don’t want you to be hurt another day! I want for you what I have found; PEACE. This peace came from finding out who I am and loving every bit of me because I am worthy and I can accomplish whatever I can think about. No one ever gave us the instruction manual to explain the tools we were born with. Let’s take our tools/talents and use them to show the world that we can FLY. It all starts with finally loving yourself enough to take babysteps to release the negativity and perfectionism!
We can flit from flower to flower like the beautiful butterfly! We have the butterfly power within each of us. We can spread our wings and make our corner of the world just a little bit brighter with our colorful arms to hug us!
Are you ready to come out of your Cocoon and FLY?
FlyLady
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Cleaning Baby Steps
Lately, baby steps are everywhere!
David and I just completed a 90day program about Financial Peace from Dave Ramsey. It was great, we are working though his baby steps and we are on Baby Step 2 - Debt Snowball. We have made the goal of paying off our rather ridiculous debt by the end of 2009; 2010 will start in a way that we have never been before- debt free & living in finaical freedom.
I have also recently pickup a book/wookbook that I starting last year, but wasn't able to get serious about. Now, I am serious & I am following Julia Havey's Life Changer Program. I am only 5 day in, but it made me realize how much thought process has to do with eating, goals, weight loss and life changes. I really need to make some personal talk changes, in order to develop into the person that I know I can be.
And now in a random Google of baby steps- Fly Lady also has baby steps- so I am thinking, why not!? :) I like Fly Lady and I am beginning to like baby steps- small daily steps... makes sense this would be a good way to clean my house as well as my checkbook and my body.
David and I just completed a 90day program about Financial Peace from Dave Ramsey. It was great, we are working though his baby steps and we are on Baby Step 2 - Debt Snowball. We have made the goal of paying off our rather ridiculous debt by the end of 2009; 2010 will start in a way that we have never been before- debt free & living in finaical freedom.
I have also recently pickup a book/wookbook that I starting last year, but wasn't able to get serious about. Now, I am serious & I am following Julia Havey's Life Changer Program. I am only 5 day in, but it made me realize how much thought process has to do with eating, goals, weight loss and life changes. I really need to make some personal talk changes, in order to develop into the person that I know I can be.
And now in a random Google of baby steps- Fly Lady also has baby steps- so I am thinking, why not!? :) I like Fly Lady and I am beginning to like baby steps- small daily steps... makes sense this would be a good way to clean my house as well as my checkbook and my body.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Just a waste
Wasted night again. I can't seem to get in a workable & productive routine, still - I have worked so hard, and yet still the same place. I seem to be able to get to a starting point, but not much beyond that. I am driven and thoughtful. I know that I can do what I set out to. It is about small daily steps, small daily actions.
Today, I shared a devotion at our staff meeting about 5% more. What would even 5% more than I am doing now? 5% more would make a difference- that's what! :) Tomorrow, I have a full day to do that 5% more. A new chance to do and be everything that I want. Tonight, I will go to bed, so that I can rest and be prepared for all this everything.
Today, I shared a devotion at our staff meeting about 5% more. What would even 5% more than I am doing now? 5% more would make a difference- that's what! :) Tomorrow, I have a full day to do that 5% more. A new chance to do and be everything that I want. Tonight, I will go to bed, so that I can rest and be prepared for all this everything.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I am Famous!!
By the way... I am famous!! along with Bob & Heather & David.
Fun times !! http://kygo.com/photos/index.cfm?ShowID=concerts&PhotoID=9300
Fun times !! http://kygo.com/photos/index.cfm?ShowID=concerts&PhotoID=9300
EDITED: and again!! that's us at the show last night, David is wearing blue and I am in red! :)
REstart
I feel like the week needs a REstart. I call a REdo! REtry, REtry- as long as it's not a REplay!
And yet I am in desperate need of the weekend. So, I guess today (Friday) will just have to do as my REstart and my weekend doorway. I have my focus plan & am ready to get some stuff done!
And yet I know lingering back deep in my mind are last nights toughts and last nights music...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sa7ot4R_-Qo
How is that fair?
I am trying to be focused and work through the day, yet it feels like I am under drip tourture. And yet no one would know otherwise.
And yet I am in desperate need of the weekend. So, I guess today (Friday) will just have to do as my REstart and my weekend doorway. I have my focus plan & am ready to get some stuff done!
And yet I know lingering back deep in my mind are last nights toughts and last nights music...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sa7ot4R_-Qo
How is that fair?
I am trying to be focused and work through the day, yet it feels like I am under drip tourture. And yet no one would know otherwise.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Am I preparing my wins?
"Most people have the will to win, few have the will to PREPARE to win."Bobby Knight
I just had to jot this down before I forgot it- my mind is racing, I have so much to say about this quote, but not the time to get it down. Maybe later.
I just had to jot this down before I forgot it- my mind is racing, I have so much to say about this quote, but not the time to get it down. Maybe later.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Coffee Changes Everything
Hi Friends,
Here is a special story I found on email. Guess, I need to start drinking more coffee!
A CUP OF COFFEE?
You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked. "What's the point, mother?"
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity--boiling water--but each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.
"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. " When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another lever? How do you handle Adversity?ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?
Here is a special story I found on email. Guess, I need to start drinking more coffee!
A CUP OF COFFEE?
You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked. "What's the point, mother?"
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity--boiling water--but each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.
"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. " When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another lever? How do you handle Adversity?ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?
Proud to be in Mary Kay
I am proud to be working with Mary Kay- it's it such an amazing company! And it is a great income adder when things get tight. :)
Check this out! an these links that I got in an email today...
Top director, Holly Ennis, was on TV! You will have to watch the commercial 1st! Pass this on to all your customers and friends! We are the best business to work and own in any economic times! Betsy
Here is one of the TV NEWS REPORTS with Holly featured in it!!!!
Channel 5 Interview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JgWvr-YZBmA&fmt=18
Channel 33 Interviewhttp://www.the33tv.com/pages/video/?autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=3039259
Check this out! an these links that I got in an email today...
Top director, Holly Ennis, was on TV! You will have to watch the commercial 1st! Pass this on to all your customers and friends! We are the best business to work and own in any economic times! Betsy
Here is one of the TV NEWS REPORTS with Holly featured in it!!!!
Channel 5 Interview: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JgWvr-YZBmA&fmt=18
Channel 33 Interviewhttp://www.the33tv.com/pages/video/?autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=3039259
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Yankee Candles! - Support my little sister
Let me know if you are interested in supporting Alyssa in her school's fund raiser.
From: ODIA@MSN.COM
Subject: Fw: Yankee Candles!
Date: Tue, 21 Oct 2008 18:16:04 -0600
Hi Everyone! Our next fundraiser is one the way and this is a good one! Please look at the brochure and let me know if you would like to order! If Possible, we need the money by the 31st. Thanks a lot everybody!
http://www.yankeefundrasing.com - click on the Fall Catalog.
All checks should be made out to FACE.
Love,
Alyssa
Jennifer Eberhard
From: ODIA@MSN.COM
Subject: Fw: Yankee Candles!
Date: Tue, 21 Oct 2008 18:16:04 -0600
Hi Everyone! Our next fundraiser is one the way and this is a good one! Please look at the brochure and let me know if you would like to order! If Possible, we need the money by the 31st. Thanks a lot everybody!
http://www.yankeefundrasing.com - click on the Fall Catalog.
All checks should be made out to FACE.
Love,
Alyssa
Monday, October 20, 2008
Job Offer?
Today, I took a career/personality test online. I was rather happy with the results, here it what it says about my strenghts in leadership.
So how about that job? Wouldn't you want to work with me?
So how about that job? Wouldn't you want to work with me?
Jennifer's Strengths in Leadership:
INFLUENCING
You are the "go to" person when a leader is needed. Others see your strengths and know that you possess wonderful managerial insight. Many people are willing to follow you because of your charisma and enthusiasm. While sometimes seeming a bit aggressive, your fairness and people skills soon have others remembering you want the best for all involved.
DIRECTING
You probably put people ahead of tasks; but when you start falling behind, you get moving and take care of what is at hand. You may wait till the last minute, but you usually pick up the pace and meet the deadlines that are necessary for success.
PROCESSING
You can take an idea or a project and follow through from start to finish. While you prefer changing roles and responsibilities, you will stick to a routine that is necessary to fulfill a need.
DETAILING
You tend to follow through on specific details that have been relayed to you as important. In new areas you may not see the importance of certain portions of the work that require more precision and review. Try using new strategies such as note taking, repetition of the goal, and asking for clarity.
CREATING
You feel great about the balance you have. You are often able to come up with some great new ideas; but, more than that, you find the time to make them a reality. Others are often impressed with your unique ideas and your ability to find approaches that solve even difficult problems.
PERSISTING
You are a strong, steady worker who wants to do quality work. Sometimes you may begin to look at other alternatives to completing a project when the going starts getting rough. Remember not to quit nor lose focus on what you have started.
RELATING
You are a naturally friendly and caring individual who is very approachable. Others feel very comfortable coming to you and you make friends very easily. You are frequently called on when there is a need to network with others to get a project done.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Monday Starts
Planning is first. I have learned (the hard way) that things go smoother and slower if I have more planned out. Or maybe it is if I have to improvise, I know what I am up against. If you are ever feeling burnt out and ready to give up- wheather it is on a specific project, a job or even laundry. Try letting Monday be the start to your week. Take your Monday as your planning day, set up your week, think ahead, save yourself the pain. Then when you have your week planned, you will be see what is imperitive that it gets done this week, start on that! It's Monday, how great will it feel to already have something big and important scratched off as "DONE!"?
There are many books that push that minutes planning can save you hours working. I am up for that! Or course depending on your personal schedule, you can make any day your planning day- and Sunday evenings also work great. However, if I took Sunday night, I found myself sitting in my office thinking way too long and not getting much done, taking away from my family time & not being able to think clearly of what was coming up that week. So, I am taking my Monday and planning.
How to start your plan: First you must write stuff down, get a planner and a pen - or whatever tools work for you. And I would do a mind dump first, this means writting everything down of your TO DOs that you can think of. Personally, I like seperating that down into categories right away. I used a different piece of paper or seperate notepads, for this. I would then go through and highlight either your MUST dos for the week- and be honest MUST dos, not should would like to dos. :)Then do one of these MUSTs- the one that will make the most impact on your week.
Wow, you already have something done this week, it is Monday & you have everything all planned out for the rest of the week. Doesn't that feel great!
There are many books that push that minutes planning can save you hours working. I am up for that! Or course depending on your personal schedule, you can make any day your planning day- and Sunday evenings also work great. However, if I took Sunday night, I found myself sitting in my office thinking way too long and not getting much done, taking away from my family time & not being able to think clearly of what was coming up that week. So, I am taking my Monday and planning.
How to start your plan: First you must write stuff down, get a planner and a pen - or whatever tools work for you. And I would do a mind dump first, this means writting everything down of your TO DOs that you can think of. Personally, I like seperating that down into categories right away. I used a different piece of paper or seperate notepads, for this. I would then go through and highlight either your MUST dos for the week- and be honest MUST dos, not should would like to dos. :)Then do one of these MUSTs- the one that will make the most impact on your week.
Wow, you already have something done this week, it is Monday & you have everything all planned out for the rest of the week. Doesn't that feel great!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
First Name ...
J- People Adore you ( I wish I felt this today )
E- You love to kiss ( Yes, I do love to kiss.)
N- Easy to fall in love with ( again, not really feeling this one)
N- Easy to fall in love with ( still not feeling this)
I- People love you ( I sure hope so.)
F- Easy to fall in love with ( feeling kind of repeatitive now)
E- You love to kiss ( ya ya, whatever)
R- You Are Great in bed ( really? cuz you wouldn't know lately!)
Sorry, guess it's obvious that I'm not feeling peppy today.
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A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
B: You love a certain someone
C: People cant help but check u out
D: You are really lovable
E: You love to kiss
F: Easy to fall in love with
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I : People love you
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy
L: awsome kisser
M: Beautiful
N : Easy to fall in love with
O : Best kisser ever
P : You are popular with all types of people
Q : You are a hypocrite
R: You Are Great in bed
S: Loud and likes to have fun
T: You are loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V : You are not judgmental
W: You are popular
X: You never let people tell you what to do
Y: Worth waiting for
Z: People love you
E- You love to kiss ( Yes, I do love to kiss.)
N- Easy to fall in love with ( again, not really feeling this one)
N- Easy to fall in love with ( still not feeling this)
I- People love you ( I sure hope so.)
F- Easy to fall in love with ( feeling kind of repeatitive now)
E- You love to kiss ( ya ya, whatever)
R- You Are Great in bed ( really? cuz you wouldn't know lately!)
Sorry, guess it's obvious that I'm not feeling peppy today.
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A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
B: You love a certain someone
C: People cant help but check u out
D: You are really lovable
E: You love to kiss
F: Easy to fall in love with
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I : People love you
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy
L: awsome kisser
M: Beautiful
N : Easy to fall in love with
O : Best kisser ever
P : You are popular with all types of people
Q : You are a hypocrite
R: You Are Great in bed
S: Loud and likes to have fun
T: You are loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V : You are not judgmental
W: You are popular
X: You never let people tell you what to do
Y: Worth waiting for
Z: People love you
Shopping for Life
As I was walking Down life's highway
Many years ago
I came upon a Sign that read
Heavens Grocery Store.
When I got a Little closer
The doors swung Open wide
And when I came To myself
I was standing Inside.
I saw a host of Angels.
They were Standing everywhere
One handed me a Basket
And said 'My Child shop with care.'
Everything a Human needed
Was in that Grocery store
And what you Could n ot car ry
You could come Back for more
First I got some Patience.
Love was in that Same row.
Further down was Understanding,
You need that Everywhere you go.
I got a box or Two of Wisdom
And Faith a bag Or two.
And Charity of Course
I would need some Of that too.
I couldn't miss The Holy Ghost
It wa s all over The place.
And then some Strength And Courage to
Help me run this race.
My basket was Getting full
But I remembered I needed Grace,
And then I chose Salvation for
Salvation was for Free
I tried to get Enough of that
to do For you and me.
Then I started to The counter
To pay my grocery Bill,
For I thought I Had everything
To do the Masters Will.
As I went up the Aisle
I saw Prayer and Put that in,
For I knew when I Stepped outside
I would run into Sin.
Peace and Joy Were plentiful,
The last things On the shelf.
Song and Praise Were hanging near
So I just helped Myself.
Then I said to The angel
'Now h ow much do I owe?'
He smiled and Said
'Just take them Everywhere you go.'
Again I asked 'Really now,
How much do I Owe?'
'My child' he Said, 'God paid your bill
A long long time Ago.'
Shared with me through email
Many years ago
I came upon a Sign that read
Heavens Grocery Store.
When I got a Little closer
The doors swung Open wide
And when I came To myself
I was standing Inside.
I saw a host of Angels.
They were Standing everywhere
One handed me a Basket
And said 'My Child shop with care.'
Everything a Human needed
Was in that Grocery store
And what you Could n ot car ry
You could come Back for more
First I got some Patience.
Love was in that Same row.
Further down was Understanding,
You need that Everywhere you go.
I got a box or Two of Wisdom
And Faith a bag Or two.
And Charity of Course
I would need some Of that too.
I couldn't miss The Holy Ghost
It wa s all over The place.
And then some Strength And Courage to
Help me run this race.
My basket was Getting full
But I remembered I needed Grace,
And then I chose Salvation for
Salvation was for Free
I tried to get Enough of that
to do For you and me.
Then I started to The counter
To pay my grocery Bill,
For I thought I Had everything
To do the Masters Will.
As I went up the Aisle
I saw Prayer and Put that in,
For I knew when I Stepped outside
I would run into Sin.
Peace and Joy Were plentiful,
The last things On the shelf.
Song and Praise Were hanging near
So I just helped Myself.
Then I said to The angel
'Now h ow much do I owe?'
He smiled and Said
'Just take them Everywhere you go.'
Again I asked 'Really now,
How much do I Owe?'
'My child' he Said, 'God paid your bill
A long long time Ago.'
Shared with me through email
Friday, October 3, 2008
How well do you know your spouse?
I got this from a bulletin on Myspace. :)
1. They are watching TV... What are they watching?
South Park or Movie Channels
2. You're out to eat. What kind of dressing do they get on their salad?
Ranch!! and only Ranch!
3. What's one food this person doesn't like?
Tomoatoes
4. You go out to the bar. He/she orders......
Bud Light
5. Where did he/she go to high school?
BHS
6.What size shoe do they wear?
I believe his boots are 10 EE
7. If this person were to collect anything, it would be...
ANYTHING John Deere Green
8. What is their favorite type of sandwich?
Italian Meatball or just a bunch of deli meat like Clubs
9. This person could eat ______ everyday.
Punk Cookies
10. Favorite cereal?
Muesil
11. This person wouldn't be caught dead wearing?
a dress- oh wait, he already has done that...... ummm, a tong!
12. Favorite sports team?
none, whoever I am rooting for...
13. Who will he/she vote for?
that is his decision
14. What is their sign?
stupid Virgo
15. What is something you do that he/she wishes you didn't?
smoke
16. How many states has this person lived in?
One
17. What is his/her heritage?
German
18. You bake them a cake for their birthday. What kind?
Cherry chip Cake , but really Boston Cream Pie Yes, Honey, I still owe you one!
19. Did he/she play sports in high school?
Yes, Baseball
20. This person could spend hours...
hanging out with friends on our patio or garage
watching stupid movies until 2am
ranching at the farm
21. He wants a new...
truck, dog, work cloths, carpet, kitchen.... wife?
22. The CD I would probably find in their vehicle is...
George Strait
23. What can you do that will guarantee a laugh from him/her?
Flash him
24. Does he/she get along well with their family?
Sure
25. If money wasn't an option, I would buy him/her...
A full secion of land!! to have his ranch on
I feel like I know him pretty well....
1. They are watching TV... What are they watching?
South Park or Movie Channels
2. You're out to eat. What kind of dressing do they get on their salad?
Ranch!! and only Ranch!
3. What's one food this person doesn't like?
Tomoatoes
4. You go out to the bar. He/she orders......
Bud Light
5. Where did he/she go to high school?
BHS
6.What size shoe do they wear?
I believe his boots are 10 EE
7. If this person were to collect anything, it would be...
ANYTHING John Deere Green
8. What is their favorite type of sandwich?
Italian Meatball or just a bunch of deli meat like Clubs
9. This person could eat ______ everyday.
Punk Cookies
10. Favorite cereal?
Muesil
11. This person wouldn't be caught dead wearing?
a dress- oh wait, he already has done that...... ummm, a tong!
12. Favorite sports team?
none, whoever I am rooting for...
13. Who will he/she vote for?
that is his decision
14. What is their sign?
stupid Virgo
15. What is something you do that he/she wishes you didn't?
smoke
16. How many states has this person lived in?
One
17. What is his/her heritage?
German
18. You bake them a cake for their birthday. What kind?
Cherry chip Cake , but really Boston Cream Pie Yes, Honey, I still owe you one!
19. Did he/she play sports in high school?
Yes, Baseball
20. This person could spend hours...
hanging out with friends on our patio or garage
watching stupid movies until 2am
ranching at the farm
21. He wants a new...
truck, dog, work cloths, carpet, kitchen.... wife?
22. The CD I would probably find in their vehicle is...
George Strait
23. What can you do that will guarantee a laugh from him/her?
Flash him
24. Does he/she get along well with their family?
Sure
25. If money wasn't an option, I would buy him/her...
A full secion of land!! to have his ranch on
I feel like I know him pretty well....
Praise God!!!
I just want to throw up a quick praise and thanksgiving comment- David's cousin Joe has had his last ped scan this week & it was clear!!!!!
The cancer is gone! Wha-ho!
This is what Joe said about it in his care blog:
I am back finally
Posted 2 days ago
I got the results of my PET scan today and my doctor was out of the office, but the nurse was able to read me the results. The report shows that there is something on the left hip, but they think it is from the radiation. All other spots are gone and show no metabolic activity. I don't have cancer anymore. I really don't know what else to say. I'll write again after I see the doctor and set a date for the party. Thanks for hangin in with me and I hope this is it.
CANCER SUCKS,
Joe
The cancer is gone! Wha-ho!
This is what Joe said about it in his care blog:
I am back finally
Posted 2 days ago
I got the results of my PET scan today and my doctor was out of the office, but the nurse was able to read me the results. The report shows that there is something on the left hip, but they think it is from the radiation. All other spots are gone and show no metabolic activity. I don't have cancer anymore. I really don't know what else to say. I'll write again after I see the doctor and set a date for the party. Thanks for hangin in with me and I hope this is it.
CANCER SUCKS,
Joe
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Talk to me about it!
See, it hasn't been a new idea. I haven't been nuts for only a minute... check back on this blog I wrote in March!
http://jeberhard.blogspot.com/2008/03/is-love-more-than-choice.html
It is just me to challenge, analyze and think about things, and yes- question love, mine- yours-ours- freaking chill out! I can't help it, it is just who I am. A thinker not a doer. I don't think about the option that my whole future might be falling down in pieces, I think of - huh, is this the way that it is supposed to be? Is this the best situation that makes sense? What would have changed, if I did would have done this or would have said that!? You are the one that makes me think that my future is falling down in chunks! You are the one that shuts me down, to make me what to cry. That's right, it is all about you, I know- no surpize.
It's a natural thing, I am not going crazy- I have been this way, since you've known me.
I just don't get why you would be so attentive now? Why would you ask me those things! Why now, I have enough going on in my head. I don't have time to be sad about you.
http://jeberhard.blogspot.com/2008/03/is-love-more-than-choice.html
It is just me to challenge, analyze and think about things, and yes- question love, mine- yours-ours- freaking chill out! I can't help it, it is just who I am. A thinker not a doer. I don't think about the option that my whole future might be falling down in pieces, I think of - huh, is this the way that it is supposed to be? Is this the best situation that makes sense? What would have changed, if I did would have done this or would have said that!? You are the one that makes me think that my future is falling down in chunks! You are the one that shuts me down, to make me what to cry. That's right, it is all about you, I know- no surpize.
It's a natural thing, I am not going crazy- I have been this way, since you've known me.
I just don't get why you would be so attentive now? Why would you ask me those things! Why now, I have enough going on in my head. I don't have time to be sad about you.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Working for Others
I just have to say how much I enjoy working out! HA, I know that I might not look like it! :) but I do & have really enjoyed going lately with my cousin & my neighbor! It is funny how much you are willing to do, when you are doing it for others. Going with them, makes me focus on the workout, develop a plan & push myself to the limits, because I know they are doing the same.
Wanna workout with us? We workout at Snap Fitness, normally go late at night, anywhere between 9 and 10, for about an hour. Let me know, so I can plan for you too!
ps. I am also looking for an AM buddy as well, probably between 6-7am.
Wanna workout with us? We workout at Snap Fitness, normally go late at night, anywhere between 9 and 10, for about an hour. Let me know, so I can plan for you too!
ps. I am also looking for an AM buddy as well, probably between 6-7am.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
My Mommy Loves Me
It is so nice to have emails like this one waiting in your inbox. It appears to be a boring 'ole forwarded joke type email, but hidden within it is a love note from your Mom & even deeper is a love note from God. Not quite enough to make me cry this morning, but close! Instead I decided to share it :) My Mom and I were talking this weekend, about how broken, shattered & weak I feel like I have become. And that's a hard place to be, let alone admit it to your mom.
This was a very simple reminder that broken, shattered & weak- doesn't mean alone & that God still wants to be by my side. (Praise him for that!) And even if I was only worth $20 right now, at there are people that still wants me! And if I was only worth a $1, God would still have his hand raise "I want her." :)
Hope this will also remind you of your own worth and the worth of others even if, (who are we kidding) WHEN they hurt you. We are ALL flawed and stupid. We all understand and interpret things differently, we all have different timings in life and different reasons, motives or agendas. People are the best (and most complicated) part of this life, enjoy them- before it is too late.
ps. I love you! (in case I haven't told you lately)
Jennifer, Just to let you know... I agree. Love who God made you. If you are not being who God made you, repent and paint a new picture. He LOVES you. Mom
$20.00 Sometimes we just need to be reminded
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked,
'Who would like this $20 bill?' Hands started going up.. He said, 'I am going to give this $20 to one of
you but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, 'Who still wants it?'
Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, 'What if I do this?'
And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. 'Now, who still wants it?'
Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make
and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it.'
Count your blessings, not your problems. 'And remember: amateurs built the ark .. professionals built the Titanic.'If God brings you to it -
He will bring you through it.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Transparent
Today, I am wondering how tranparent I really am. It came to my attention this weekend that I am a faker. :( And I just wonder who really knows me and who thinks they know me....
We were talking about how self-esteem is directly related to accomplishments. And really, that making lots of sense, I don't feel like I have really accomplished much of anything in life. I don't feel like I have ever been pushed or tested to my extreemes, that I haven't been able to make myself go for something that seemed out of reach. I am a faker, I can half ass just about anything & it looks good on the outside. Glaze this over for this person & add a quickover lay for this one. Making the stories, charaters and drama happen to what they are needing and think my life is.
I don't know why all of a sudden this popped out to me this weekend (and made me cry of course), but it made me think of how many things that I think that I am holding back on & yet I wonder if I am actually more transparent than I think. Do people know what I am feeling, saying or thinking, before I say it- or even if I don't say it? Picking up the true meaning behind things, instead of making them "fit" what they know about me? Heck, do I even know what I am meaning? Half of the time, I would think not. It's nice to have friends and family that know you that well, I can only think of a few that would probably be up to this task. Yet, I hope that I have a good enough connection with my friends, that they can feel transparent with me; without the glaze and overlays.
Transparent, also makes me think about how sometimes I feel in a large group, or small one for that matter. I wonder how much of it is me slinking off into the background vs. being overlooked. Somehow, around the holidays this becomes a regular feeling for me. Transparent, over looked, unimportant. I hate it when people can talk directly to you, ask a question & then completely hear what they want to hear.
"Would you like some Jello."
"Yes, thank you"
& then pass it the other way or skip you.... like you are invisible.
This happens more often than not with family and even worse with My Deere Loving Husband. Sometimes, I feel like I could just kill him. :) I couldn't and won't though, he is stronger than me.
I really enjoy hanging out with a group; we have a lot of fabulous friends. I just hope that I never make anyone feel transparent.
We were talking about how self-esteem is directly related to accomplishments. And really, that making lots of sense, I don't feel like I have really accomplished much of anything in life. I don't feel like I have ever been pushed or tested to my extreemes, that I haven't been able to make myself go for something that seemed out of reach. I am a faker, I can half ass just about anything & it looks good on the outside. Glaze this over for this person & add a quickover lay for this one. Making the stories, charaters and drama happen to what they are needing and think my life is.
I don't know why all of a sudden this popped out to me this weekend (and made me cry of course), but it made me think of how many things that I think that I am holding back on & yet I wonder if I am actually more transparent than I think. Do people know what I am feeling, saying or thinking, before I say it- or even if I don't say it? Picking up the true meaning behind things, instead of making them "fit" what they know about me? Heck, do I even know what I am meaning? Half of the time, I would think not. It's nice to have friends and family that know you that well, I can only think of a few that would probably be up to this task. Yet, I hope that I have a good enough connection with my friends, that they can feel transparent with me; without the glaze and overlays.
Transparent, also makes me think about how sometimes I feel in a large group, or small one for that matter. I wonder how much of it is me slinking off into the background vs. being overlooked. Somehow, around the holidays this becomes a regular feeling for me. Transparent, over looked, unimportant. I hate it when people can talk directly to you, ask a question & then completely hear what they want to hear.
"Would you like some Jello."
"Yes, thank you"
& then pass it the other way or skip you.... like you are invisible.
This happens more often than not with family and even worse with My Deere Loving Husband. Sometimes, I feel like I could just kill him. :) I couldn't and won't though, he is stronger than me.
I really enjoy hanging out with a group; we have a lot of fabulous friends. I just hope that I never make anyone feel transparent.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Do I have what it takes? Honestly, honesty sucks.
Today someone told me that they were proud of my tenacity. Knowing that it was a compliment, that they thought I was on the ball, know what I want, make things happen, have it all together.... I wondered a bit.... really? Do I have tenacity? Am I tenacious?
Not that I didn't know the meaning, but wanting a deeper understanding of the word they used, I decided to look it up...
Dictionary: tenacious adj.
Holding or tending to hold persistently to something, such as a point of view.
Holding together firmly; cohesive: a tenacious material.
Clinging to another object or surface; adhesive: tenacious lint.
Tending to retain; retentive: a tenacious memory.
[From Latin tenāx, tenāc-, holding fast, from tenēre, to hold.]
So now I am wondering even more.... really? am I?
Tenacious, such a neat word- it speaks to me with strength and courage. Things that I don't really think that I have.... so now I am really confused, do I really have what it takes to be tenacious?
Do I have strength and courage to persistently hold on to what's important to me?
Things are easy, it is not often people try to take things away from you, yet when they do (such as robbery) you feel so violated it is surprising.
Ideas get more complicated, there are always people trying to change your mind or telling you that it's impossible give up on that idea. Ideas are hard, I have the dreams, but where is my drive?
BUT people are the worst! Relationships are so difficult! I don't really feel like I have an courage or strength when it comes to most of my relationships, I just go with the flow and let whatever comes come, I think that's how I have been my whole life, just enjoying the people that God has placed in my life, knowing that His plan is right. I just recently started wondering about the courage it takes to grow relationships with these great and fabulous people that He has places with us.
Relationships can be like the seasonal growing flowers or they can be like the quick sprouting weeds, but the best kind are like the slow growing, deep rooting trees. These are the relationships that you care for as needed, but overall trees don't even have to be watered or fed, yet they continue to grow- the best friends, the kindred spirits, the soul mates, however, when you do water and feed trees- it's amazing how strong and beautiful they become.
No matter what kind of relationships you may have, they take time and courage. You need TIME to learn about the other person, hang out with them, ask questions, listen when they talk, listen when they don't & love them for who they are. You need COURAGE to allow them to learn about you, opening up to them, honestly answering questions & let them know what you are about and who you are or maybe who you are trying to become.
I honestly don't think that I have done this very well. I wish I had more time to give my growing relationship & even the tree relationships that have stood the test of time. I wish I would have had more courage with these relationships, what would have been different if I would have said, "No - I don't agree with you" "I am telling your parents." "No, you can't treat me like that." "Yes, I can." "I want to go to college." "Can I call you?" "I love spending time with you." "Yes, I feel the same way." "Hi – remember me?" "I am sorry." "You might not know this, but I Love You." (Maybe that's not fair, cuz I am sure things would have been different, if I would have kept my mouth shut at different times in my life as well.)
Anyhow, I don't see how I could be tenacious (persistently holding on) if I haven't actually went out and grabbed anything that I have wanted. I stalled out- listening to the na- sayers, the impossibles, the never-gonna-happens. I haven't been bold enough to stand up for myself, my feelings or the things that I believe in. I have just gone with the flow, being "laid-back" & "flexible" – but now I wonder… is that actually a good thing? Maybe, I would rather be hated for being the bitch that knows what she wants & what she is capable of, showing people how she feels (even if it is just for a moment), telling people what she thinks (even if it isn't what they expect). Not worrying about the possibility of being hurt (why is that such a big fear for me) or apologizing for her possibly bad timing (why do I expect everyone else timing to be my own). That would be tenacious; strong, courageous, persistently holding on, holding together firmly.
Not something that I am not, have never been & doubt the world is ready for.
So thanks for the compliment, for I know you meant well, but unfortunately it hurt me, it makes me want to cry & it makes me angry that you don't really know me. I wish I was how you see me, but I am not.
Not that I didn't know the meaning, but wanting a deeper understanding of the word they used, I decided to look it up...
Dictionary: tenacious adj.
Holding or tending to hold persistently to something, such as a point of view.
Holding together firmly; cohesive: a tenacious material.
Clinging to another object or surface; adhesive: tenacious lint.
Tending to retain; retentive: a tenacious memory.
[From Latin tenāx, tenāc-, holding fast, from tenēre, to hold.]
So now I am wondering even more.... really? am I?
Tenacious, such a neat word- it speaks to me with strength and courage. Things that I don't really think that I have.... so now I am really confused, do I really have what it takes to be tenacious?
Do I have strength and courage to persistently hold on to what's important to me?
Things are easy, it is not often people try to take things away from you, yet when they do (such as robbery) you feel so violated it is surprising.
Ideas get more complicated, there are always people trying to change your mind or telling you that it's impossible give up on that idea. Ideas are hard, I have the dreams, but where is my drive?
BUT people are the worst! Relationships are so difficult! I don't really feel like I have an courage or strength when it comes to most of my relationships, I just go with the flow and let whatever comes come, I think that's how I have been my whole life, just enjoying the people that God has placed in my life, knowing that His plan is right. I just recently started wondering about the courage it takes to grow relationships with these great and fabulous people that He has places with us.
Relationships can be like the seasonal growing flowers or they can be like the quick sprouting weeds, but the best kind are like the slow growing, deep rooting trees. These are the relationships that you care for as needed, but overall trees don't even have to be watered or fed, yet they continue to grow- the best friends, the kindred spirits, the soul mates, however, when you do water and feed trees- it's amazing how strong and beautiful they become.
No matter what kind of relationships you may have, they take time and courage. You need TIME to learn about the other person, hang out with them, ask questions, listen when they talk, listen when they don't & love them for who they are. You need COURAGE to allow them to learn about you, opening up to them, honestly answering questions & let them know what you are about and who you are or maybe who you are trying to become.
I honestly don't think that I have done this very well. I wish I had more time to give my growing relationship & even the tree relationships that have stood the test of time. I wish I would have had more courage with these relationships, what would have been different if I would have said, "No - I don't agree with you" "I am telling your parents." "No, you can't treat me like that." "Yes, I can." "I want to go to college." "Can I call you?" "I love spending time with you." "Yes, I feel the same way." "Hi – remember me?" "I am sorry." "You might not know this, but I Love You." (Maybe that's not fair, cuz I am sure things would have been different, if I would have kept my mouth shut at different times in my life as well.)
Anyhow, I don't see how I could be tenacious (persistently holding on) if I haven't actually went out and grabbed anything that I have wanted. I stalled out- listening to the na- sayers, the impossibles, the never-gonna-happens. I haven't been bold enough to stand up for myself, my feelings or the things that I believe in. I have just gone with the flow, being "laid-back" & "flexible" – but now I wonder… is that actually a good thing? Maybe, I would rather be hated for being the bitch that knows what she wants & what she is capable of, showing people how she feels (even if it is just for a moment), telling people what she thinks (even if it isn't what they expect). Not worrying about the possibility of being hurt (why is that such a big fear for me) or apologizing for her possibly bad timing (why do I expect everyone else timing to be my own). That would be tenacious; strong, courageous, persistently holding on, holding together firmly.
Not something that I am not, have never been & doubt the world is ready for.
So thanks for the compliment, for I know you meant well, but unfortunately it hurt me, it makes me want to cry & it makes me angry that you don't really know me. I wish I was how you see me, but I am not.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Tuesday 6:30 Morning
First off, I need to say a little YEAH FOR ME- I got up early!! Not just on time, which is pretty impressive at that, but EARLY! Such a nice concept allows me to drop a few lines here.
This morning I think that I'll get dressed now, hopeing to have time to come back here and drop a few lines about my new health goal; my new planning system; and a few morning thoughts on finances, schedules and making contact.
! Later !
This morning I think that I'll get dressed now, hopeing to have time to come back here and drop a few lines about my new health goal; my new planning system; and a few morning thoughts on finances, schedules and making contact.
! Later !
Monday, July 28, 2008
Funny email applys to work
Better than a flu shot!
Miss Beatrice the church organist was in her eighties and had never been married. She was admired for sweetness and kindness by all.
One afternoon the pastor came for a visit. She took him into her quaint little sitting room. She invited him to sit and went to prepare tea.
As he sat facing her old hammor organ the young minister noticed a cut-glass bowl sitting on top of it. The bowl was filled with water. In the water of all things floated a condom.
When she returned with the tea and scones they began to chat. The pastor tried hard to ignore it but soon it got the best of him. He had to ask!
"Miss Beatrice", he asked " I wonder if you would tell me about that bowl on the organ?"
"Oh, yes," she replied "Isn't it wonderful?!" "I was walking through the park one day and I found this little package on the ground." The directions said to place it on the organ, keep it wet and that would prevent the spread of disease." "Do you know that I haven't had the flu all winter!" The young minister just smiled!"
Miss Beatrice the church organist was in her eighties and had never been married. She was admired for sweetness and kindness by all.
One afternoon the pastor came for a visit. She took him into her quaint little sitting room. She invited him to sit and went to prepare tea.
As he sat facing her old hammor organ the young minister noticed a cut-glass bowl sitting on top of it. The bowl was filled with water. In the water of all things floated a condom.
When she returned with the tea and scones they began to chat. The pastor tried hard to ignore it but soon it got the best of him. He had to ask!
"Miss Beatrice", he asked " I wonder if you would tell me about that bowl on the organ?"
"Oh, yes," she replied "Isn't it wonderful?!" "I was walking through the park one day and I found this little package on the ground." The directions said to place it on the organ, keep it wet and that would prevent the spread of disease." "Do you know that I haven't had the flu all winter!" The young minister just smiled!"
Devoted Invites
Lord,
Please open the hearts of the people that are invited to desire to be closer to you and desire of how to live as you have intended us to live - w/ freedom and honoring you. Lord, thank you for all that you have given me and for the opportunity that you've given me to have people welcome in my home to learn more about you.
Amen
Please open the hearts of the people that are invited to desire to be closer to you and desire of how to live as you have intended us to live - w/ freedom and honoring you. Lord, thank you for all that you have given me and for the opportunity that you've given me to have people welcome in my home to learn more about you.
Amen
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Juice Plus Fall Regionals
Today is July 23rd - two months away from Fall Regionals on September 20th.
And I am ready to make some goals in order to registure for regionals.
I want to have 5 of my closest family and friends eating Juice Plus by Sept 13th (one week before regionals.) This will pay for my regionals training & show my self that I can.
And I am ready to make some goals in order to registure for regionals.
I want to have 5 of my closest family and friends eating Juice Plus by Sept 13th (one week before regionals.) This will pay for my regionals training & show my self that I can.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Prayer for Abundance
Heavenly Father, most Gracious and Loving God, I pray to you that you abundantly bless my family and me. I know that you recognize, that a family is more than just a mother, father, sister, brother, husband and wife, but all who believe and trust in You.
GOD, I send up a prayer request for financial blessing for not only the person who sent this to me (Dani), but for me and all that will read it. And that the power of joined prayer by those who believe and trust in You is more powerful than anything! I thank you in advance for your blessings. God, deliver the person reading this right now from debt and debt burdens.
Release your Godly wisdom that I may be a good steward over all that You have given me GOD, for I know how wonderful and mighty You are and how if we just obey You and walk in Your word and have the faith of a Mustard Seed that You will pour out blessings. I thank You now Lord for the recent blessings I have received and for the blessings yet to come because I know You are not done with me yet.
Amen.
GOD, I send up a prayer request for financial blessing for not only the person who sent this to me (Dani), but for me and all that will read it. And that the power of joined prayer by those who believe and trust in You is more powerful than anything! I thank you in advance for your blessings. God, deliver the person reading this right now from debt and debt burdens.
Release your Godly wisdom that I may be a good steward over all that You have given me GOD, for I know how wonderful and mighty You are and how if we just obey You and walk in Your word and have the faith of a Mustard Seed that You will pour out blessings. I thank You now Lord for the recent blessings I have received and for the blessings yet to come because I know You are not done with me yet.
Amen.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Weekly Meal Plan/Tracking
Monday June 2nd~ no plan makes things harder
I did get hungry after workout! yeah! was stuffed rest of night. Woke up hungry Tuesday.
Breakfast: 2 slices of burnt pizza from last night's dinner (10:30am)
Lunch: Cherries (1pm)
Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Calzone, Green Salad and Carrots
* David had to leave for work early & we copped out to do fast food.
Taco Bell/ nacho supreme, cheesy crunch gordita, cheesy double beef burrito (5:15pm)
Snack: Chocolate Shake
* Didn't need snack- was fine all day.
Water Count: 100 ounces (goal met good job!)
Workout: 4pm Training
Tuesday June 3rd~
Woke up hungry & drank water and JP.
Breakfast: Cherries (9:30am)
Lunch: Going out with Staff/ Salad, Salad, Salad
*I did good I had a Cheff Salad and a Cup of Soup
Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Calzone, Green Salad and Carrots
Snack: Chocolate Shake
Water Count: 80 (5pm)
Workout: 4pm, if David comes / 9:30pm, if JenG comes
Wednesday June 4th ~
Breakfast:
Lunch:
Dinner:
Snack:
Water Count:
Workout: 7:30am Training
Thursday June 5th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout: 4pm Training
Friday June 6th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
Saturday June 7th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
Sunday June 8th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
I did get hungry after workout! yeah! was stuffed rest of night. Woke up hungry Tuesday.
Breakfast: 2 slices of burnt pizza from last night's dinner (10:30am)
Lunch: Cherries (1pm)
Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Calzone, Green Salad and Carrots
* David had to leave for work early & we copped out to do fast food.
Taco Bell/ nacho supreme, cheesy crunch gordita, cheesy double beef burrito (5:15pm)
Snack: Chocolate Shake
* Didn't need snack- was fine all day.
Water Count: 100 ounces (goal met good job!)
Workout: 4pm Training
Tuesday June 3rd~
Woke up hungry & drank water and JP.
Breakfast: Cherries (9:30am)
Lunch: Going out with Staff/ Salad, Salad, Salad
*I did good I had a Cheff Salad and a Cup of Soup
Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Calzone, Green Salad and Carrots
Snack: Chocolate Shake
Water Count: 80 (5pm)
Workout: 4pm, if David comes / 9:30pm, if JenG comes
Wednesday June 4th ~
Breakfast:
Lunch:
Dinner:
Snack:
Water Count:
Workout: 7:30am Training
Thursday June 5th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout: 4pm Training
Friday June 6th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
Saturday June 7th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
Sunday June 8th~
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack
Water Count
Workout
Thought Gathering
When I quote others I do so in order to express my own ideas more clearly.
- Michel de Montaigne
I feel like I am ready to explode- my brain is just going to pop open because of all the thoughts, flying around- to do's, to call's, schedules, wants, possibilities, trips to make and erans to do.
Does it ever stop? I feel like I am always behind and never getting the right stuff done.
I think part of my problem is that I am a)trying to do too much and b) thinking too much about it. BUT I also don't have any kind of system that has worked well for me. I have a planner for my schedule and appointments- but there isn't enough room to write many to do's down or other items like that.
Today is already 1/2 over - and yet nothing is accomplished.
- Michel de Montaigne
I feel like I am ready to explode- my brain is just going to pop open because of all the thoughts, flying around- to do's, to call's, schedules, wants, possibilities, trips to make and erans to do.
Does it ever stop? I feel like I am always behind and never getting the right stuff done.
I think part of my problem is that I am a)trying to do too much and b) thinking too much about it. BUT I also don't have any kind of system that has worked well for me. I have a planner for my schedule and appointments- but there isn't enough room to write many to do's down or other items like that.
Today is already 1/2 over - and yet nothing is accomplished.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Monday Working
I think I might be one of those really weird people that actually likes Mondays. Not because I get to come to work, but mainly because I have the whole week to get stuff done! I am relaxed and not in a rush. Now, if I can only stay this way throughout the week- now that would be really cool. By Wednesday, I am starting to panic. But I think having a day plan & watching my time more, will be able to help me stay on task and on track!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Is love more than a choice?
I heard before I got married that love is a choice. That you have to wake up in the morning and make the conscious decision to love. This was coming from married and unmarried women alike. Love is a choice, and when made daily is the basis of a happy marriage.
Tonight I am wondering, isn't love more. Isn't love an action and a re-action?I have also heard about falling out of love and that love isn't enough. Not very comforting ideas to a more or less newlywed couple. Aren't there other explanations for this? Can you fall out of love, maybe you were never really in love. How is love not enough, maybe there is only one party loving. Are these comments that come from people who have been happy & then poof, happy no more? or are they easy thoughts to have when you aren't willing to say, "You know I just give up, I am not willing to love you anymore."
And what about complicating things even more... is sex love? It is called the Act of Love, but that doesn't really constitute it love, does it? This makes me think of a recent movie my deer loving husband and I watched, Good Luck Chuck. In it he asks, "What's sex without love?" Funny enough his nasty little friend yells back, "It's still SEX!"
So, are there really more choices in love- than "fate"? and if love- is a mental choice to make & how do we really choose and decide gets it?
Is there a fate of who we love?
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Quotes to Live By
Motivation
"Unless you change how you are, you will always have what you've got.
Life is a unique combination of "want to"and"how to"and we need to give equal attention to both.
The most important question to ask on the job is not "what am I getting?" The most important question to ask is "What am I becoming?"
Pity the man who inherits a million and isn't a millionaire. Here's what would be pitiful: if your income grew and you didn't.
We can have more than we've got because we can become more than we are."
Life is a unique combination of "want to"and"how to"and we need to give equal attention to both.
The most important question to ask on the job is not "what am I getting?" The most important question to ask is "What am I becoming?"
Pity the man who inherits a million and isn't a millionaire. Here's what would be pitiful: if your income grew and you didn't.
We can have more than we've got because we can become more than we are."
- Jim Rohn
I am anew in Him.
Read this from my KLOVE Engouraging Word:
...I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past &looking forward to what lies ahead,
Philippians 3:13, NLT
I really love this verse, it makes me think of how we ask God for changes in life and we ask him for blessings- and yet sometimes we don't change what we are doing or want to change the person we have become, BUT what if we aren't the people that he ment us to be?
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Wealth Secret from The Secret
Below is an excerpt from The Secret online, that shows ways to stay positive about money.
Each day, try to concentrate on one of these items, choose a new one each day- concentrate on them!
Watch your Wealth grow!
Monday, February 18, 2008
Wishing you a peaceful sleep...
I ran into this quote tonight, looking for some encouraging words for a great friend that has cancer. He was saying how difficult it is to be patient right now, one month down & four more to go. I am not very patient, but I guess I don't even understand that type of courage and patience that treatment like that demands from you.
This quote stood out to me, I hope it soothes your heart and allows you to snuggle up in His presence and sleep well.
Have courage for the great sorrows of life
and patience for the small ones;
and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task,
go to sleep in peace. God is awake.
Victor Hugo (1802 - 1885)
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Fake Saturday
Today feels like a fake Saturday. David and I enjoyed sleeping in together. I made breakfast, and were supposed to spend the day together. I guess that what makes it a real fake Saturday, we hardley get to spend Saturday's together anyhow. Knowing that I start work Monday, I really wanted to make the most of the next few days. David is already busy Friday and Saturday- now I find out he is busy tomorrow (Thursday as well) guess this was the one day to spend time together & now he's in the office & I am bored and alone.
Great fake saturday.
Maybe I'll be able to get the laundry done, and clean up after breakfast.
Great fake saturday.
Maybe I'll be able to get the laundry done, and clean up after breakfast.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Employed: Scarey but Exciting
I Got a JOB!
Today, I was offered a job that I have been persuing for several weeks. I am scared but super ready for this exciting the new opportunity. I will be working at a local church at thier front desk. I hope we all get along in the office & that I will be able to figure it out quickly and accuratley. I have so many mixed emotions! YEAH! and crap. I really wasn't wanting to work full time so soon again, but I do think that it will be a good thing for our family. David and I have been struggling finacially and emotionally. I have too many really- he hasn't enough. Depending on the hours for the church, I think this might be the perfect fit for my spacey and scared brain. I know that we have to work on our finances before we are able to break free into our future.
Anyhow, yeah! I am been jobed.
Today, I was offered a job that I have been persuing for several weeks. I am scared but super ready for this exciting the new opportunity. I will be working at a local church at thier front desk. I hope we all get along in the office & that I will be able to figure it out quickly and accuratley. I have so many mixed emotions! YEAH! and crap. I really wasn't wanting to work full time so soon again, but I do think that it will be a good thing for our family. David and I have been struggling finacially and emotionally. I have too many really- he hasn't enough. Depending on the hours for the church, I think this might be the perfect fit for my spacey and scared brain. I know that we have to work on our finances before we are able to break free into our future.
Anyhow, yeah! I am been jobed.
Dreaming: Intuition or Just Weird??
This morning I woke up remembering a few parts of my dreams... my ears were bleeding & there was something wrong with my earring, it wasn't supposed to be there or it was like a slave tag or something. I bothered me, feeling uneasy about it all.
So I deciede to go check out what other people might interpret it as. Here is what the website Dream Moods says about these items:
So I deciede to go check out what other people might interpret it as. Here is what the website Dream Moods says about these items:
Ears
To see ears in your dreams, suggests that you need to be more responsive or receptive to guidance and assistance from others. You may be relying too much on your own judgment and intuition. You need to listen more closely to what you are being told. Alternatively, it signifies your immaturity and lack of experience. I think that this could very well be. I have been kinda searching and pulling out of some depression lately. I feel like I can't trust myself and that I have got myself here, that I can't think straight anymore. I try and plan but don't DO. David has been telling me stuff that I don't want to hear about my Mary Kay business - that I haven't put enought time into it & that I dream too much.
To dream that you are cleaning wax from your ears, suggests that you are not listening to those around you. There may be something that you are refusing to hear. Are you turning a deaf ear?
To dream of pain in your ear, indicates that you will be receive some bad or offensive news. I am waiting on a job call back this week, so this makes me nervous. I really wanted and really need it!
To dream that you are cleaning wax from your ears, suggests that you are not listening to those around you. There may be something that you are refusing to hear. Are you turning a deaf ear?
To dream of pain in your ear, indicates that you will be receive some bad or offensive news. I am waiting on a job call back this week, so this makes me nervous. I really wanted and really need it!
Earrings
To dream that you or someone is wearing earrings, suggests that you need to listen more carefully and pay attention. This makes me think that I need to listen to myself more carefully, maybe it isn't David at all, but that I am not listening to myself. I am listening to the bad self, the grumpy, negative one, instead of the true self in me. The nuturing careing and self loving positive self.
Blood
To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. If you see the word "blood" written in your dream, then it may refer to some situation in your life that is permanent and cannot be changed.
To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you. Women often dream of blood or of someone bleeding shortly before or during their periods and when they are pregnant.
To dream that you are drinking blood, indicates that you have a fresh burst of vitality and power.
To dream that you are bleeding or losing blood, signifies that you are suffering from exhaustion or that you are feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions has come back to haunt you. Women often dream of blood or of someone bleeding shortly before or during their periods and when they are pregnant.
To dream that you are drinking blood, indicates that you have a fresh burst of vitality and power.
Well, I surely wasn't drinking blood in my dream, but now I kinda wish I had. But the highlighted section does hit home right now. I doubt I am pregnant, but emotionally drained and confrontations have been current.
So, what if dreams are intuition what should I do? How do I change my listening? I do feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions, that I never get to do what I want, was planned or what I should really do. I don't want to seem selfish, if I don't have time for others, but I do understand that I do need time for myself too. Even if it is just to finish my laundry and call some customers.
But, what if dreams are just weird then I guess I should clean my ears before bed. ?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Been a while...
I guess it has been a while since I last worked. Like full focus really worked, I just read a Zen Blog today that really made sense with me. That the 1st step is to realize you are fighting resistance. That is SO very true! I face resistance every day!!! to eat and act healthy, to work my business, to do household chores- and currently to fold the laundry. While at this current minute I am not going to fold the laundry, I am aware now that this resistance exists and will be more choice worthy of what my time is taken up with. Current moment deserves phone time, calling customers- actually working. Shhhh don't tell my Deere Loving Husband, he won't know what to do!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Uncomfortable Startoff
Ok, funny to look back and see my great possitive attitude on the 7th. Go me!
It has been really hard to stay that way, but I am trying!
the 8th we found out that our best buddy and cousin Joe has cancer
the 10th My Deere Loving Husband sprainked his ankle servere enough that we went to the ER to make sure it wasn't broke, we also hung out with Joe that night and kinda got a feel of how he was doing
the 12th we took our dog to the vet b/c of bleeding stitches
the 14th I found out my job probably will be ending in March
the 15th I had a job test ! yeah, something good
the 16th we paid to have my computer reset and crap (stupid thing, but is running nicely now)
the 17th My Deere Loving Husband dropped the white truck off that we are trying to sell!! (BUY MY TRUCK!)
the 18th we went to a party at my Deere Loving Husband's bosses house
the 19th was busy, but I am not sure with what....Laundry! I remember now.
the 20th we hung at home & slept in
the 21th we hung at home & slept in (but still haven't heard from my boss about job?) worried.
so in that nut shell, I've been pretty stressed lately, sorry I haven't wrote more here. Guess that would make sense.....
It has been really hard to stay that way, but I am trying!
the 8th we found out that our best buddy and cousin Joe has cancer
the 10th My Deere Loving Husband sprainked his ankle servere enough that we went to the ER to make sure it wasn't broke, we also hung out with Joe that night and kinda got a feel of how he was doing
the 12th we took our dog to the vet b/c of bleeding stitches
the 14th I found out my job probably will be ending in March
the 15th I had a job test ! yeah, something good
the 16th we paid to have my computer reset and crap (stupid thing, but is running nicely now)
the 17th My Deere Loving Husband dropped the white truck off that we are trying to sell!! (BUY MY TRUCK!)
the 18th we went to a party at my Deere Loving Husband's bosses house
the 19th was busy, but I am not sure with what....Laundry! I remember now.
the 20th we hung at home & slept in
the 21th we hung at home & slept in (but still haven't heard from my boss about job?) worried.
so in that nut shell, I've been pretty stressed lately, sorry I haven't wrote more here. Guess that would make sense.....
Monday, January 7, 2008
Hubby's Help
Finally, helping with cleaning out the garage has finally paid off!!!
My Deere Loving Husband helped me through a organizational issue ( I seem to have many!) - and I am so thankful that he helped! I seem to continue to over annalize and over commit by extending work processes out much more than they need to be. I have been fighting (with myself) over how to organize my customers & a contact log. Finally, with David's help & the KISS thought process, I am back the basics. And that's ok, cuz I know it works.
My Deere Loving Husband helped me through a organizational issue ( I seem to have many!) - and I am so thankful that he helped! I seem to continue to over annalize and over commit by extending work processes out much more than they need to be. I have been fighting (with myself) over how to organize my customers & a contact log. Finally, with David's help & the KISS thought process, I am back the basics. And that's ok, cuz I know it works.
Just a bit waabbly.
Have you ever felt like a new born deer- but a bit waa-abbly in the legs? Not sure if your own muscles are going to hold you up? That's sure how I felt this morning!! Walking down my house stairs, after my first hour long work out in a very long time!!!!
It feels good to 'feel the burn'- to move around- to Exercise. There I said it, now if I'll just remember it tomorrow, when I wake up hurting & having to do my exercise again, because I have committed to the week!!!
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UPDATE: 10:40pm
Oh my goodness, I hurt! I am embaressed to say how much I MUST be out of shape!! My thighs hurt, walking up stairs is even worse now- getting up out of my chair... ahhhh.
:) That's ok, I am still possitive & excited to have life change.....
Let's just see how I feel tomorrow & if I can even get out of bed.
It feels good to 'feel the burn'- to move around- to Exercise. There I said it, now if I'll just remember it tomorrow, when I wake up hurting & having to do my exercise again, because I have committed to the week!!!
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UPDATE: 10:40pm
Oh my goodness, I hurt! I am embaressed to say how much I MUST be out of shape!! My thighs hurt, walking up stairs is even worse now- getting up out of my chair... ahhhh.
:) That's ok, I am still possitive & excited to have life change.....
Let's just see how I feel tomorrow & if I can even get out of bed.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Welcome Happiness in 2008
Checked out the happiness project a bit for the last few days. It's a very interesting site. It has really got me thinking- but then again, not acting. Hey, but thinking is the first step.
Tonight, once again, is more about working on the computer (on the couch, in front of the tv) Good to get something done, but I really do need to get a little less talk & a lot more action.
Tomorrow, will be a more active day. Here are the plans:
am - shake
am- workout
noon- shake
noon- workout
pm- guess what- a shake
pm- workout
tasks: take down christmas tree, clean kitchen, pick up after dog, call on pt jobs
Go team!
Tonight, once again, is more about working on the computer (on the couch, in front of the tv) Good to get something done, but I really do need to get a little less talk & a lot more action.
Tomorrow, will be a more active day. Here are the plans:
am - shake
am- workout
noon- shake
noon- workout
pm- guess what- a shake
pm- workout
tasks: take down christmas tree, clean kitchen, pick up after dog, call on pt jobs
Go team!
Jan 1
I almost slept the day away. Granted we partied pretty late last night. Unfortunaltely, it wasn't quite the way that I was hoping to "take the day on".
Guess we'll try again tomorrow, nothing else to rather do.
Guess we'll try again tomorrow, nothing else to rather do.
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